In the middle of June of this year, I hit my breaking point.
Admist my plan I had formulated a year ago to permanently move home to the Rocky Mountains, I found out that my job would not be continuing on, like I had planned. I’m not entirely sure if my gig was something that I really wanted to commit to for an extended period of time, but I thought I was ready to be gainfully employed, full-time with the coveted array of benefits and stability, as such arrangements ensure. I thought it was time to step away from the seasonal lifestyle that had largely dominated my working culture for the last 8 years.
After receiving word that it just was not in my stars to have the elusive permanent job, my next thought was, “Well, what the hell am I going to do now?!” To be honest, my immediate reaction was one of pure negativity. I had held the job for only 3 months while being misled about the future of the position and then being told to be patient when I wasn’t getting answers to my questions. It took me six months to procure this job, and I wasn’t exactly thrilled at the glaring future of having to find another one.
White River National Forest (my office!)
Breaking point reached.
But, what to do? Where to go? What will make me happy??? Hmm…..
Alongside these tumultuous rumblings in my mind, a re-occurring theme kept popping up in my life–the words appearing to me in a book, scrawled across a wall, and then on perpetual repeat in my thoughts:
“The trouble is, you think you have time.” Wise words from Buddha–
Another scenario to help fuel the above prudent statement: a year and a half ago, I had a life altering experience, something that left scars both mentally and physically, but also left the crystal clear message that there are moments in time that you have absolutely no control over, which has presented the ever-so annoyingly, simple question…if not now, when??
For a few years, I have dreamt of a chance to pick up and travel internationally, but never really had the push or direction I needed. At the time I found out my job was going to end, I had the fortune fate of answering a roommate add on craigslist, which placed me in the apartment of Katie. Meet my push and direction. Katie and I are similar in thinking in regards to wanderlust, the unconventional, and the “you only live once” rule of thumb. After thoroughly discussing extreme opportunities and probable possibilities, the end result was a decision made within 2 weeks of in-depth research: to become an English teacher in Thailand.
The view from our front porch in Avon, CO.
Now that the opportunity is here, I have run full force at it with no intention of slowing down.
I leave in one week, and, to be perfectly honest, I don’t know when I’ll be back 🙂
©Beauty Is In The Journey 2013